| ONE WAY. |
[November 16th at 9:42pm] |
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Life is a one way street. Sure, there are a lot of roads to choose from, but once you make a choice, you can never go back. Well, maybe you can, but it’s not going to be that easy. Why am I saying this? Wala lang. It’s just that I miss some aspects of the old me. Having had a lot of free time to reflect and to stare into the abyss of nothingness, I’ve come to realize that things have changed a lot more than I thought so. Old habits are no more than a memory. Old favorites are now mediocrity. Ewan. I just miss a lot of things. Yeah, that’s it… I miss a lot from the past. Things are just not how they used to be. I’m no longer the same person that I was before, and the people around me have changed to. There’s just too much change! Everything is moving so fast, and I don’t know if I could keep. Yeah sure, things might have been doing well for me, but still, it wouldn’t hurt if I could relive yesterday again. Just one more time.
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| Cliché |
[November 4th at 1:46am] |
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Cliché -a phrase, expression, or idea that has been overused to the point of losing its intended force or novelty, especially when at some time it was considered distinctively forceful or novel. Ever wonder why clichés are always used, or why it came to the point of being overused? Could it be because clichés speak of the many truths and realities of life? Could it be bacause clichés are the general statements that confine life? Could it be because clichés are the best expression of life by the human language? Just think.
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| I hate dead air... |
[October 26th at 11:36pm] |
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The silence and the nothingness make me think of things that are better left unthought-of. The dead airs of life... it HURTS.
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| MEDIA: Don’t be ignorant. Think. Be realistic. |
[October 22nd at 7:06am] |
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Don’t be ignorant. Think. Be realistic. Don’t be ignorant. Think. Be realistic. Don’t be ignorant. Think. Be realistic. - this is what was resonating in my head the day that I came home from a media conference. Here's a thought: Media is a diversified life with a society of opposing, varying, and critical views. Media, being given the responsibility to serve, tries to cater to all its societies’ needs. But media can only do so much. Media can only be too real. Idealism is not always ideal. We must think. Think properly, deeply, critically. Make good use of your MIND! Of your INTELLIGENCE! Let us not be ignorant, let’s think. Lets be realistic
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| Finally, a DOCTOR that made me feel better... |
[October 13th at 9:00am] |
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... by making me LAUGH!!!! I love this DOCTOR!!!!
HEALTH QUESTION & ANSWER SESSION
Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... Don't waste them on exercise . Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.
Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.
Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!
Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.
Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!
Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: You're not listening... .Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be bad for you?
Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach. Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable. It's the best feel-good food around! ! Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.
Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape! !
Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.
And remember:
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming, "WOO HOO, What a Ride!"
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| Faulty Alphabet Poetry |
[September 28th at 4:14am] |
Blogging for Boredom.
- gave this alphabet thing a shoot just for the fun of it... ha-ha
Astonishing Beauty Conveys Deceitful Elegance Foretelling Great Harm, Intellectual Justifications, Knowledgeable Labyrinths, Momentous Narcissism, Obsessive Physiology, Quantitative Retribution, Severe Turmoil Under Vicarious Worlds X-pressing (hahaha) Your Zenith
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| God is NEVER an EXCUSE. |
[June 12th at 12:14am] |
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One of the reasons why I hate the slogan “everything happens for a reason” is because people (specially the pseudo-religious ones) use it as a refuge for the things that get out of hand or for the many experiences that happen in their lives. So many times have I encountered a person with a problem or with a burdened heart that would go about things saying “may plano ang Diyos kung bakit nangyari itoh.” True, God indeed has plans but that doesn’t necessarily mean that everything that happens in our life is happening because that is how he WILLED it! Wake up Guys! God gave us the freedom to choose and to stand up for ourselves; He gave us life to live, not a script to play! Can’t we at least acknowledge the fact that maybe things are the way they are because of our own doing?? Even if God has a perfect plan for all of us, we should never surrender things to destiny and fate; we hold the power to mold our own future. We should learn to be responsible for our actions. We should learn to do things our way by the will of God. And maybe, just maybe, if we learned to do these things and not use God as an excuse, maybe our oppressions in life would lessen. Maybe if we would then realize what it means to LIVE. “Repeated experiences have but one aim; to teach you what you don’t want to learn”
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| One WORD. |
[June 11th at 8:24am] |
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OPPRESSION!
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| TRADE OFF. |
[May 1st at 10:42am] |
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I went biking the other day, and for everyone’s information; I haven’t gone biking for the longest time -probably a year or more. It was fun. I enjoyed it a lot, and it was at that time when it struck me: “In doing one thing, you miss the chance to do another.” Same goes for our lives. In focusing ourselves on one aspect of living, we loose sight of other things. In this case, I lost sight of having fun by the simple act of biking, and enjoying the company of my family.
It’s really no big deal. But when I suddenly thought of the many “what-ifs” and “what-could-have-been”, I realized how much I was missing in life. I became too occupied with the nonsensical things like being great, being popular, being someone for somebody; that I neglected to be someone for myself. I overlooked life. I gave in too much emphasis. I forgot that life too can be very well worth it without the “big words”, without the trophies, medals, and all other things. That life can find perfection in simplicity.
In my constant pursuit of the things that I thought mattered most, I ended up with a bigger mess in my hands. I ended up cluttering the life that I was supposed to organize. And now that life is catching up on me, I am left paralyzed in place. Dumbfounded.
Things that I’m supposed to, but do not, understand suddenly make me immobile and unable to take another step. I wasn’t able to appreciate the tutorials in life, and now that the test has come, I’m afraid that I may have to pass a blank sheet of paper.
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| A struggle for decision… |
[April 27th at 9:02am] |
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Life is a struggle, a warfare, and a fight between you and the world. The world plays a significant and vital role in an individual’s life, but the world does not control the individual; it should not be the one responsible for the individual’s outcome. Our future, our dreams, and our goals are affected but are not determined by the world.
We have the power to control “our” life. We are superior over it because we are its rulers. We have a say in what should and must be done. We have a voice! The problem however, lies in the dividing force between what you want, and what the world asks of you.
By next semester, I would be a junior student in college. By next year, I will be a graduating student (hopefully). But still, my future plan is nothing but a hazy cloud. Who do I want to be? What do I want to do? –these are but some of the questions that are running through my mind right now. ‘Oo nga naman, as a development communicator what should I do with my life?’
Besides the fact that I will be graduating as a DEVCOM student, I also have many other opportunities when I graduate. But I can’t pinpoint which direction I would want to go.
On one hand, I could go and study HRIM in Switzerland. For me, it a great choice because I would be able to take up International Business Management, and learn 3 different Languages; plus I would also learn how to cook. The thing I like most about is being able to take up both Business and Communication in one course. Did I also mention that it only takes two year to get the diploma? Promising right? But is this the best choice
On the other hand, I could go and pursue law after college. My relatives have been trying to brainwash me to be a lawyer since I was in high school. They say that I can be a very good lawyer, and that a lawyer is very much needed in the family (corporate lawyer), to help mange the businesses and also the aid the doctors in the family. But I have to admit, a part of me wants to be a lawyer. Being a lawyer sounds good and challenging, not to mention the fact that you get to be called attorney! But is taking up law the right choice?
Both choices are tempting and the both have their own ups-and-downs, and probably you would go on telling me to weigh the odds, but it’s not as easy as that. We’re talking about my future here! My future is the one at stake, and I’m simply scared, more so, afraid to make the wrong choice.
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| Heart. |
[April 7th at 9:52am] |
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A state of bliss. My mind is hovering over a hollow cloud. My soul is lost in the abyss of uncertainty. Only my heart is left within me. My heart is the one taking over me. And now, I’m here on earth experiencing pain, regret, disappointment, and such. That is what my heart does. That is where my heart takes me – into a world of confusion and frustration.
The heart is indeed strong, but is not always smart. A heart can be pure but still prone to bruises. A life lived with a heart alone can never bring satisfaction. A life lived with a heart alone can kill.
A heart.
My heart. It kills.
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| Fishing. |
[April 6th at 2:40am] |
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For as long as I can remember, all I have been doing in my life is fishing.
Fishing for compliments, praises, feedbacks, and the like…
I feed on these things. I get my confidence and ego boosts from what people think. I seldom think for myself. I always seek for other’s opinion.
I don’t know if this is healthy, or if this is really doing me any good. But I have been so used to it that I find it hard to fully decide on my own. Though there are things in my life that I keep for myself, majority of the things that I do are influenced by other people.
As I look at it, I find myself weak and pathetic. Not being able to stand firm on my own two feet. Not being able to live by my own choices. Not being able to be independent of the influence of others.
People often think that I’m strong, that I’m great, that I’m ‘somebody.’ But that’s not always the case.
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| Sampaguita... |
[March 24th at 9:38am] |
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(March 10, 2007)
7:20pm, Saturday. As I was waiting for a friend at the Carabao Park here in UP Los Banos, a sampaguita girl approached me and prodded me to buy sampaguita from her. Sure, sampaguita vendors are a common here in the university, but there was just something about this little girl.
As I grew more curious, I made use of my waiting time to interview the little girl. I was startled to know that she was only 5 years old; my thoughts then shifted to my 4 year old brother. I was simply saddened. A 5 year old girl was out in the streets, at night, selling sampaguita. As we continued on with our conversation, I also became aware that she did not know how to cross the streets and often resolved to run in order to get to the other side. A dangerous feat for such a little girl.
We talked for awhile and when she had to leave, I quikcly pulled out my laptop to write this down… *sigh*
I thought I was already fully aware of the realities of life. Yeah, maybe I am, but to actualt talk to someone about it and to really experience it is another thing. And now here I am, in front of my laptop trying to convey this chunk of feelings and emotions within me, hoping that something would happen. Hoping that, well, hoping….
STOP.
- Angeli
- 5 years old
- sampaguita vendor
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| HappYness |
[February 16th at 11:26am] |
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These past few days, happiness has been a rampant topic. I don’t know why, but for some reason it just seems to be knocking at my door.
But, what is happiness? Where can we find it? How can we find it? Does it really exist?
Many people say that there are a lot of things that can make us happy. True. I have found a lot of things in my life that made me happy. Things that gave me happiness; But happiness that are just skin deep; happiness that are just ephemeral.
The happiness that I’m longing for is eternal happiness. The kind that will never abandon me. The kind that will always put a smile on my face. The kind that would free me from remembering the hurts of the past; form experiencing the pains of today; and from thinking about the fear of tomorrow. The kind of happiness that would leave me fulfilled and appeased. The kind of happiness that would never seem to exist.
Hurt. Pain. Regret. Doubt. Fear. Insecurity. Envy. Sloth. (No coherence.. so?!?)
These are but a few words that would always be present in ones life. Words that we wished never existed. Words that made us hate reality. Words that made us hate life.
But there is just no way to escape these words. You cannot simply erase them; they are and will forever be present. The only way you can deal with them is to overcome them, to defeat them, to overpower them.
It’s ironic that I could easily say what to do in order to deal with these words, while in reality, I can never seem to put what I said in to good use.
I can never fully overcome my weaknesses; never fully appreciate the things I have; never fully feel confident about my self; never fully feel satisfied. I could never be fully happy about myself.
I'm tired. Just tired.
I know what I must do… but I can’t do it…
I know what I need to do… but I can’t do it…
I know what I can do… but I don’t do it…
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| RECAP!!! |
[January 20th at 12:40am] |
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Its been quite awhile since the last time I wrote here...
Actually andami ko na nang pinalipas na events na hindi ko nagawan ng blog. A lot has happened since the last I posted, lots fond memories and instant life changing events… Here’s a list to just to give you a run down of the things that I’ve been busy with for the past few weeks:
- my family celebrated Christmas at Manila; had loads of fun with my relatives and I received lots and lots of gifts.. haha.. kakamiss! I really really LURVE Christmas! “click” hehe…
- we visited different relatives during Dec 25, its nice to have a quiet family time with your distant relatives even from time to time,, hehe…
- after Christmas, me and my friends went to EK to celebrate the holiday season, it was my first time to ride the SPACE SHUTTLE (yeah, I know I know, I’m a loser) takot kase ako sa heights, pero after the ride, sabi ko: “un lang pala un, lets ride again” haha…
- we celabrated New Year here in lipa with relatives from both sides of the family. Total family bonding! We also had thousands and thousands worth of fireworks, pwede nang pang EK.. haha… super saya, and of course, we had our own share of family pictorials… har har..
- had to go back to school at Jan 2, *sigh* pero ok din kase all of us still had the holiday hang over, so gimik almost every night. Andami ngang sleep overs na nagyari sa apt ko eh! Haha.. kaya we were puyat for almost the entire week. (yak, taglish, ang CONIO!!)
- Jan 6, we attended my cousins’ wedding.. saya, asteeg ung wedding, and it was fun coz we got to be with the whole family agen (iba talga ang moments when your with your family) haha… yippee…
- LSS was fast approaching, so the week before the seminar was a long week, dami oppressions and the sort, pero kinaya nmn…
- Had my LSS last Jan13-15, it was truly a life changing experience, grabe talga… whew!! I love the Lord!! Haha pero shempre, oppressions and temptations na naman after ng LSS, pero I know that I can go through them all, coz I’m with GOD!!
- Had lots of JOCKS things to do, enjoyed time with my batchmates, and we even watched miggy in one play, galing galing ni miggy! Haha.. go go go REDS…
Ayun, so far, yan lang yung mga naaalala ko.. haha… saka na ulit ako gagawa ng matinong post.. tinatamad pa ko eh…
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| Shitty things... |
[December 26th at 1:30am] |
Again, here are some of my mid morning cellphone compositions.. haha..
Sometimes it takes more than the 5 senses to realize what truly exists…
I don’t know if you’re really really stupid, undeniably ignorant, and blatantly insensitive
Or
Just plain busy to even notice me
You made falling in love with you so easy
Yet at the midst of it all,
You give me a thousand reasons to hate you
I can no longer see the person whom I loved,
…the person whom I cared for,
…the person who now ceases to exist…
Why are you like this?
Were you always like this?
If so, who was the person who I fell in love with?
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| Funny but TRUE! haha... **(something to break the ice)** |
[December 21st at 6:43pm] |
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Manure...A True Story
Manure: In the 16th and 17th centuries, everything had to be transported by ship and it was also before commercial fertilizer's invention, so large shipments of manure were common.
It was shipped dry, because in dry form it weighed a lot less than when wet, but once water (at sea) hit it, it not only became heavier, but the process of fermentation began again, of which a by product is methane gas. As the stuff was stored below decks in bundles you can see what could (and did) happen. Methane began to build up below decks and the first time someone came below at night with a lantern, BOOOOM! Several ships were destroyed in this manner before it was determined just what was happening. After that, the bundles of manure were always stamped with the term "Ship High In Transit" on them, which meant for the sailors to stow it high enough off the lower decks so that any water that came into the hold would not touch this volatile cargo and start the production of methane.
Thus evolved the term "S.H.I.T " , (Ship High In Transport) which has come down through the centuries and is in use to this very day.
You probably did not know the true history of this word.
Neither did I.
Got this from a message in my POSC Yahoo Group
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| Who am I?? |
[December 3rd at 7:10am] |
"There are people who, once they think they know you, choose to believe that you can only be defined by what they know about you. That's crap. We change everyday. We get ourselves soaked by sudden rain and we drown in our own tears. We learn something new with a turn of a page and with a secret shared. We continue to absorb bits and pieces of the personalities of the people we meet. To be given a label is to be confined in a perpetually closed box with no holes, no light, and no air. I refuse to be labeled as this or as that. I won't advocate the stifling of my growth. I am also not here for nothing." – Ma’am Dyqa Rogel
Who am I?” A very thought provoking question which is often left unanswered. Truth is, I myself don’t know who I really am. Yes, I know what I can and cannot do, I know what I like and don’t like, I know what to do and what not to do- but for me, these things aren’t enough to tell you who I really am. Ones characteristics and traits are not the only things to be considered in determining ones personality. Sadly, I can’t seem to pin point exactly what other factor there is to consider, I just know that there’s more to ones self than what meets the eye- The deeper understanding of who you really are and the in-depth realization of who you want to be.
In a nutshell, you could say that I have an identity crisis, a problem of not knowing who I am or who I’m supposed to be. But just look at it this way, If the world was to be of no constant shape, then that would be my world; If a year would have no definite season, then that would be my time; If life would have no constant meaning, then that would be my life. I am the kind of person who changes from day to day but still manages to keep that sense of ‘identity’ intact
In this world, many things trigger changes in our life, and this includes changing who we are. Maybe therein lies the problem; because of the constant change in ones self, you cannot fully determine who you are. True, I can tell you who I think I am, but that would not be “me”, that would just be the “me” that I think I am… haha… so simple yet so complicated.
My life at present is a ‘routinary’ life, taking into consideration my school, family, and other obligations. There’s just less and less time to spend for-and-on yourself. But just as I said, no one remains to be the same person everyday. We change in our own simple way, and every incident in your life contributes to that change. Don’t be afraid to readily face the changes and challenges that life has to bring. Life is the result of the decisions you make and the risks you take so make life more meaningful by choosing better and risking more.
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