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For as long as I can remember, all I have been doing in my life is fishing.

Fishing for compliments, praises, feedbacks, and the like…

I feed on these things. I get my confidence and ego boosts from what people think. I seldom think for myself. I always seek for other’s opinion.

I don’t know if this is healthy, or if this is really doing me any good. But I have been so used to it that I find it hard to fully decide on my own. Though there are things in my life that I keep for myself, majority of the things that I do are influenced by other people.

As I look at it, I find myself weak and pathetic. Not being able to stand firm on my own two feet. Not being able to live by my own choices. Not being able to be independent of the influence of others.

People often think that I’m strong, that I’m great, that I’m ‘somebody.’ But that’s not always the case.